Yesterday I had to do one of the most humiliating things I have had to do in a long time. I had to go to Rite Aid and purchase adult diapers for incontinence. For myself.
About nine days ago, I developed a cold that turned into a full on sinus infection with a delightful sore throat. It felt like I swallowed a fistful of fire ants. Sniffles, head pressure, fire ant throat and general fatigue plagued me as last week roared into the weekend.
Sadly, I chose that weekend to be an exceptional daughter and planned a surprise trip to Virginia to see my parents for their early March birthdays. I felt like crap but I pulled up my parents' driveway Friday night at 9pm in the middle of a torrential rain storm while wearing a flu mask. Needless to say, I surprised the hell out of them (and looked like a serial killer standing outside in the rain with a flu mask while banging on the back door).
It was a nice low-key weekend, but my cold manifested into a ugly cough. Cue stress incontinence. My coughs became so violent that it felt like a bladder's worth of contents expelled from my nethers with every blow. There were several outfit changes that weekend. It was so awkward and embarrassing and well...stressful.
On Monday, I drove back up to Philadelphia and had to hop an evening flight to Boston for a video project the next day. I was so worried I'd be banned from the plane due to my "Typhoid Mary" status. I ate an entire bag of cough drops between security and landing. The brief overnight in Boston was nice but I was getting sicker. I made it through my shoot (with many coughs and multiple takes) and by afternoon was on a plane back to Philly.
I took an Uber from the airport to an urgent care center and waited two hours to speak to a doctor for three minutes. Steroids and antibiotics were prescribed and I was sent on my way.
Like an idiot...I mean dedicated professional, I went to work on Wednesday. Somehow I got RE-SICK. My sinus symptoms came back with a vengeance and by the end of the day I was coughing, cough peeing, sneezing, snorting and could barely breathe. I coughed my whole way home and yes...stress incontinence was at its worst. I even had to buy a towel to put under my butt for the drive home.
Which brings me to yesterday. I was tired of carrying my pants down to the washer when I got home from work. I was tired of the stress of facing an uncomfortable or embarrassing situation at work. I was tired because I was so sick. So I did it. I went to Rite Aid and bought those nice Poise discreet underwear diapers for adults. They even have a little bow on them.
When I got home and took the day's outfit to the washer, I got a shower and then stepped into my new disposable drawers.
I'm 31, and I really hope I only need them to get through this ridiculously long illness, BUT, they are comfortable, secure and really took the stress away from my unfortunate situation. I should have invested in them sooner. I could have saved myself a lot of headache.
This is a massive overshare on International Women's Day to say, sometimes you have to put your ego aside and do the uncomfortable thing. It might just be the best thing for your current situation.
And yes...I will get on those pelvic floor exercises.