It’s my fault. The reason I’m like this, the reason people leave. I’ve been slowly poisoning my brain to hate myself because I’m not what society wants. I can’t stop destroying myself and sooner or later it’s gonna kill me. I can feel myself losing pieces of me and I’ll eventually fade into the background. I’m forgetting my own existence. It's getting harder and harder to breathe, I keep telling myself to pull through and that you’re stronger than this but no matter how much I try to console and convince myself I know that I’ll never be anything but weak. And that scares me. I don’t know how much longer I can do this, keeping all of this pent up anger and chaos inside of me is tearing through my soul to a point where I lay in bed contemplating the ways I could do the unthinkable. I’ve been screaming for help, through these posts and articles, can’t you tell all of these are about me? But it’s like you don’t want to help and I’m starting to believe that you actually don’t want to help. I’m tired of saving myself over and over again. I’m tired of living.
call me super glue cause holy shit do i get attached.