Tomorrow, November 28, is my birthday... I don’t think I’m ready for what’s to come. I’m turning 17, my absolute favorite age of all time and I am excited, yet terrified. I hope only good things come for me this year. It’s been a rocky 16th year, and I have had enough of all the tears, all the negative energy, and the toxic people. I have to admit, I’m the happiest I’ve ever been but I feel like there is something missing and maybe that’s just because I haven’t done everything I wanted to do this year. The following are goals I have set for myself so that, when I turn 18, I won’t feel like there’s something missing again.
This year, I hope to stop giving a couple shits about the little things. The things people say, or do, should not have any impact on my life. I should be happy without their consent. I have found myself to be quite rebellious lately; therefore, as an act of rebellion, I will walk into my utterly depressing high school overflowing with extraordinary happiness every day until I graduate.
In addition to only focusing on what I think of myself, I have to stop bitching about all the boy drama and start writing more. Every time I write, I immerse myself into the most exquisite universe I have created for myself. There, I will find the peace not offered to me by the real world, sometimes. There, I will let myself go and open myself up, like a book for everyone to read and learn from.
This year, I will become perfectly fluent in French, like I’ve been wanting to do since the 7th grade but never found the time to. I will play my acoustic guitar, I will read more books, I will meditate more, and I will thrive.
Most importantly, this year, I hope to acquire academic success. I am taking the SAT this Saturday and I’m very apprehensive about it. However, no matter what the outcome, I will be kind to myself and I will encourage myself to study harder. I know that I have more to learn and that I can take the exam many more times. As for my grades, I will pass all my classes with A’s and B’s, nothing less. I know I can do it. I know I can do everything I set my mind to.
If you haven’t yet noticed, my 17th year is all about improving and being more confident in myself. I used to be more confident when I was younger. What changed? I started attending a shit high school for my junior year populated by jealous teenagers with absolutely no self-respect. I’m fighting fire with fire. I will not let people walk over me anymore. I have noticed that people have tried to take over the things I love most. I’ve realized that people don’t care about you, they care about themselves and will do anything to be successful. Just watch. I’m going to stand my ground and fearlessly do what I love most. I can’t wait for you all to experience it with me. J
**P.S.: If anyone has any advice to offer me on how to take control over my life and not let what people say get to me, I’d greatly appreciate it. Can’t wait to hear what you have to say!**