I'm a second semester senior, graduating this coming May, and I don't have job yet--which I am partly to blame for. In a sense, I'm almost too scared and confused to apply, which really does hold me back. I know I am qualified and capable of holding my own in a "big girl" job, but three things truly stop me from applying.
1. Sometimes I feel like I'm not doing the right thing, as in my planned career is not what I am intended to do. I'm a Public Health major, which I love, but I have always dreamed of going into journalism/broadcast journalism, and even acting/film, but I just never saw it as practical, so I leaned more towards health care--something more practical. As I came into my senior year and as of recent, I have been thinking more deeply about my career and what I am truly meant to do with my life; all that introspective thinking usually leads me down a rabbit hole of fear and anxiety. However, I love health care and really want to work in it as well, such as make strides in a non for profit like Be the Match or work with underserved communities with access to quality health care. I just don't want to end up in a job where I feel stuck and unhappy, but I know that if that were the case, I would just move on and look for something better. At the same time, there's no rule that says I can't do both as in work in health care and on the side, explore my aspirations in acting and such. I just fear that I will miss my opportunity to do something I've always dreamed of ,while I'm young, in order to please the "man" or system.
2. There are several jobs and focuses within the Public Health field that I just get so overwhelmed about because I don't know which is right for me. Many of the positions I have come across, I have never seen or heard of before, so it's hard for me to imagine myself in those settings. However, I like the idea of being at a job that is out of my comfort zone, and expanding my knowledge, but I just don't want to disappoint due to my inexperience in that setting. In reality, I'm sure I would be taught many of the inner workings of the job and go through an on-boarding process, but it still makes me nervous to think I could fail miserably.
3. This is a combination of the two, but recently I have been interested in health care tech, and very much so want to pursue this, but I've never really worked in or have much experience in tech such as different softwares, programming, etc.. On the other hand, I am extremely willing to learn and do what I need to successfully be in this field. I don't want to be turned away because I don't have the proper experience or knowledge, especially when I am willing to learn and educate myself. Also, I am now confused on whether I should solely pursue health care tech or just push it to the back-burner for some time until I learn more about the industry, and navigate my focus towards what I initially planned to work in: non for profit efforts and underserved communities (but of course I can always do both).
Any words of wisdom to help me overcome this fear and figure out how to narrow my interests?