To be perfectly honest, I really enjoy being a chill girl.
I love having my easygoing attitude, instead of one that calls for me to make a fuss about everything, all the time. I like being down for pretty much anything, and not having to change anything so it fits my preferences perfectly. Making plans, and then keeping said plans, is effortless and painless. I don’t like causing or being in the middle of drama. Although I can’t lie and say I don’t enjoy watching it unfold from the sidelines (sometimes).
I’m not one to show or talk about my emotions openly to just anybody, good or bad. When I’m really upset, I’ll use my chill ways to act like I’m not the least bit bothered. It’s rare for anyone to make me laugh or smile genuinely. That being said, it takes a lot for me to become actually excited. I just don’t see the point in getting my hopes up if something isn’t guaranteed. Even when I know something is going to happen, keeping my cool is more appealing than running and jumping around crazily. Noise and crowds aren’t my thing, which is why I favor a quiet night in with Netflix and wine and my dog.
But oddly enough, I love when I meet someone who gives me reason to lose this chill.
And you’re one of them.
You give me enthusiasm and a rush I haven’t felt in a really long time. Like, a wanting-to-dance-around-the-room kind of rush. I foolishly love getting to say your name, simply hearing it. I talk about you to my friends in a way that’s so different from my usual pretty reserved manner. I actually gush while telling them all the good details, and become equally animated with the not so good ones. You’re one of the few things I love being so unreserved about.
Besides talking about you, I love talking to you. You actually listen to what I say, not merely hear it. Even in texting. Seeing your name pop up on my phone screen is still a thrilling moment. I want to tell you every single thing, with an eagerness I don’t give much else. Just look at my overdoing of exclamation points and certain emojis and double-texts. I know you’ll actually appreciate what I have to say, and give some sort of funny, authentic response. Which gets that genuine laugh and smile out of me.
I get super excited when there’s a chance I’ll spend time with you. There’s so much I want to do, and can do, with you. Basically everything and nothing because I know either way it’ll be a great time. Whether it’s going to a coffee shop, thrift shop and movie all in one day or just chatting on your bed in your room. Staying in or going out, you make it fun. Always. I love being able to tell you anything knowing you’ll try your best to understand, and not judge at all. We just click and have this thing. And I think that’s so ridiculously cool.
So yeah, I like keeping my chill. Prefer it actually.
But when it comes to you, I don’t mind giving it up.